Monday, November 30, 2009

Taking it Personally

I am the first to admit that I can sometimes be a bit sensitive and tend to take things personally. It's almost like I have it backwards - I take things personally when I should not - and maybe when something is directed at me it shoots straight over my head with not so much as a notice.

I think for today I'm going to try to release a bit of my self-centeredness and not take everything so personally... Because contrary to what I believe, it is not always about me.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Worried About Not Worrying

My feelings lately have been kind of interesting. I first received word that I would be losing my job at the beginning of June. The process of my losing my job has not been an easy one. No one came into my office one day and said, "hey, this is it..." It has dragged on for almost 6 months. Literally. Throughout this time I have felt a lot of emotions - anger, anxiety, relief, excitement. John and I have planned, budgeted, replanned, rebudgeted, so on and so forth. Last night my father in law said to me, "man, you just don't seem worried about losing your job at all... if it were me, I would be worried." Naturally when someone says something to me I start to - worry - that I'm doing something wrong. Maybe I should be worried more. Maybe something is wrong with me because I am not more worried. John and I were discussing it this morning and he plainly said, "you know, we've come to terms with it. We have a budget. If it doesn't work, you can find a job." Plain. Simple. Not worried.

So - maybe I'm not abnormal. Maybe I've already done all of my worrying. And, maybe, just maybe, I've turned this worry over to someone else. I am now counting down my remaining work days on my fingers. I don't know where I will end up, or what I will be doing, but I know I'll be ok. And with that, there is nothing to worry about.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Weekend Update

This past weekend was our second official weekend in the house --- I had dreams of sewing all day on Saturday and Sunday and said dreams were quickly crushed Saturday morning. John was on his way to Lowe's (men LOVE Lowe's - and I think every time John walks in there we lose another $100), I was sipping my first cup of coffee for the morning... John proceeds to take Chandler out to go potty and he was limping! He would not even put his front left foot on the ground... So - like any good parents, I quickly got dressed and we rushed him to the vet - and sat. For. Three. Hours. We finally were able to see the vet - no breaks. Prescribed anti-inflammatory meds. Soon after we arrived home John found a toe doggy toe nail by the trash can. Apparently in one of Chandler's digging fits into the carpet he sprung a nail down to the quick. He was running around within two hours of being home! I did get in about 2 hours of knitting though - thank goodness for portable projects!

Friday evening John and I watched toddler Ella for a few hours and had a yummy dinner with Sarah and Bill... Saturday evening Jessica, Daniel, and Louis joined us for a pot of stew and lots of trick-o-treaters! Our neighborhood is filled with little ones! And Sunday - I did do some sewing, John did some straightening of the garage, and my mom came over for dinner!

This weekend we are headed to New Jersey for my sweet little sis' first meeting and her baptism! No rest at the Saltsman home... We are busy, busy, busy! Now, to find a portable project for the plane...